MASTER DETOX CLEANSE DIE...t

I'm on day 3 of starving myself.  Let me clarify, I'm actually cleaning my insides out because food in New York is killing my body.  There's literally too much goodness in every step of the way.  My destination should be from point A to point B, but because I'm walking everywhere and seeing everything that I can possibly see, I am easily distracted to hit up some random places along the way.  Usually, I'll enter a pastry cafe because bread and baked goodies are my weakness.   My mouth waters and my sense of smell is intensified by the freshly baked goods, and I just absolutely cannot help but to buy myself a crossant or a  lemon tart  or a scone and even a bagel with strawberry cream cheese...etc.  So, due to this daily and highly consumed carbohydrates my body is on the verge of just not being able to take it anymore.  It's almost as if my body now rejects carbohydrates.  NO!!!!!  Which then came to my realization that I may be allergic to bread .... SHIT!   Or maybe I just need to consume less of it .... or even switch over to gluten-free stuff.  Well whatever the case, I just need to reset myself and detox (for a few days).  

I am weaker than I thought.  I've never really done diets or go on major detoxes, but I can tell you that it is all mental.  You tell yourself you can do it, and you do it.  But really, I'm done after today.  Not because I'm so majorly hungry and thinking about cupcakes, but because I hate doing the salt water flush and feeling the painful aftermaths of laxative tea.  I really don't know how models do it... I did hear that models do take laxative tea to maintain their skinniness.  The stomach pain is unbearable and I cannot do this diet any longer.  I feel very light headed and dizzy and so weak.  DUH - I'm not eating anything.  But surprisingly, my hunger levels aren't that bad.  I can sit down and watch people eat in front of me and it doesn't bother me or affect me in any way.  I just find myself staring at the food and watching them eat, and for some reason it's as if I'm watching in s-l-o-w-m-o-t-i-o-n.  

Being on this diet, everything is just intensified.  I can smell better, hear better, and taste lemon and maple syrup with cayenne pepper better.  Overall, its a diet I wouldn't recommend nor want to do again.  Honestly, I can probably go for another 2 days but I'm already feeling unhealthy.  I guess I just gotta stick to the old school way and just gym it hard and take it easy with the processed unhealthy foods.  I wish I can stop this now ..... just half a day left.  

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